* Bah, Humbug!! *

I dont wanna put a downer on things... but im really not looking forward to christmas this year... I dont feel christmassy at all.. and really not got into the spirit =/ It might change.. but i doubt it... but i know why..

On a brighter note...Im looking forward to after christmas when me and Ben and Taliyah will be going to Dallas for the weekend =)

Its been almost 1 year now, that i havent worked... its driving me crazy... I hate sitting indoors doing nothing..Obviously looking after Taliyah is a full time job, BUT i still prefer to get back to work.. I know alot of new mums hate the fact that they have to go back to work soon.. But i really cant wait.. So, in the new year we are definitely sorting my papers out.. If we are staying in the US til Ben can get based in England again.. I wanna get back to work..So once that is sorted i will start looking into childcare etc for her...Which will be superhard, because i am already sceptic on who I wanna leave her with, if me and Ben ever wanna go out.. Thats why we dont do anything..LOL I really dont trust anyone here with her... But I know when Emily gets back from England (HURRY) She can look after her for a couple of hours ;0)

I had my 6 week PP appointment on Friday, and all is well. So i can start my hardcore workout soon ASAP! She prescribed me some pills.. and I got home and done my research, and 98% of the reviews say they put weight on... HELL NO am i using that!! Haha... So somehow i will have to get my old pill from England sent to me... =/ I dont know how thats going to work.. But we will see..

I REALLY WANT THE NINTENDO Wii FOR CHRISTMAS!! I wanna get the WiiFit... So i can act a fool in the living room..haha! But seriously..I do! =)

I have had a great relaxing weekend...Ben has done EVERYTHING from looking after Taliyah to cleaning and getting up at night =) Thanks baby! <3

Ohhh...and I went and bought cigarettes... READ BEFORE YOU JUDGE..lol I was ready to throw up!! OMG that was disgusting... hahahaha! Atleast we know I wont be a smoker again! haha!

Anyway, ive dragged this on longer than i was supposed to..LOL sooo....BuhBye!